As of now, all is quiet on the western front – as far as legal proceedings are concerned. I would be shocked if the STBX didn’t get served this week. I just want done. I’m not anxious or scared about it; I just want to move forward.
Last week, I finally started working out at Planet Fitness. I can understand why the place is as popular as it is. They market themselves as “the judgement-free zone” and I can truly say it is the most relaxed, non-intimidating experience I’ve ever had in a gym. I’ve woke up a little bit sore the first few times I went, but not enough to discourage me from going back. In fact, I think I’m on the verge of establishing the gym as a habit. So far, it is totally worth my $10 monthly fee.
Okay, I admit it: I wanna look good. I wanna lose my gut. I wanna develop some muscle tone. I wanna feel good too. And yes, I’d like to see some results before I see the STBX again. I want her to see that not only am I doing “just fine” but also that I am prospering in The New Normal.
One thing I continue to have trouble with is sleeping. It’s not because I miss sharing a bed with the STBX. When it’s dark and quiet, my mind starts wandering. When I do sleep, it’s usually out of pure exhaustion.
More than anything, I think about my Son at night. I think I miss him far more than I even consciously realize. More than ever, I’m thinking about talking to a counselor again. If I do it, I’m gonna have to go before I lose my insurance.
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