I ‘ve mentioned before that I deal with anxiety disorder, or anxiety, as it’s more commonly known. I take medication for it, and I meet with a counselor, whom I call Lomax, twice monthly. While I have it under control, for the most part, I occasionally have days where it hits me hard and makes day-to-day life extremely difficult. Yesterday was one of those days.
June is men’s mental health month so I think it’s only fitting that I’m talking about my own issues with anxiety today. Unfortunately, people who’ve never been afflicted with any sort of mental illness or mental health issues simply do not understand them. There is a vast difference between being depressed and experiencing depression; being anxious and suffering from anxiety.
In the past, I’ve had days where I got so anxious, that I could not bring myself to leave the house. At times, it’s paralyzing. I remember one day in particular when kid 2 was here, and i was just sitting on my couch crying. I couldn’t bring myself to even take him out to go play or do anything. I eventually fought through it. Once we got out of the house I started feeling better.
There is a vast difference between being depressed and experiencing depression; being anxious and suffering from anxiety.
Other days, I’ve been in situations where I could feel the anxiety setting in. I knew that if I stopped moving, it would just overtake me. In those cases, I look at it now I’m like someone trying to ward off a migraine headache. You try to take proactive steps as opposed to reactive steps, in order to deal with it. In those cases, I just try to keep myself busy and get out of my house.
What I experienced yesterday was somewhere in between those last two examples. I was up and moving, but I just wasn’t getting any joy out of anything; and I knew that I had to keep moving. Certainly far from my worst days, but definitely not one of my best either.
It’s not as if I don’t have ongoing stressors in my life right now. My job situation for next school year is a little bit lousy. My principal has made it clear that she intends on replacing me, even though she had previously promised me a position in the building for next school year. So I know that is heavily on my mind. That kind of compounded by money issues, family issues and missing the boys made for a very bad recipe yesterday.
I’m just thankful that this really anxious/depressed Funk typically only lasts about one day for me. More often than not, I wake up the next day feeling better.
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