Rebuilding Rob

As WordPress continues to recycle old prompts, I pulled another prompt from The Coffee Monsterz Co to respond to today

Is there anything you are avoiding right now?

There are most certainly things that I’m avoiding in my life right now. And if I was willing to confront them all, I would be willing to talk about them all. But one thing that I am willing to talk about today that I am currently avoiding is telling X2 about Veronica.

The truth is, I don’t have to tell X2 about Veronica. It’s none of her business. X2 and I have been apart for five years. Who I’m dating or who I’m not dating is really none of ex’s business anymore. However, I do still, in a sense, feel obligated to let her know who I am taking kid 2 around. But even that, from a legal standpoint, is not necessary.

At this point, kid 2 already met Veronica. I mentioned that we went to the last Tigers home game a couple weeks back me, kid, you, Veronica, and Spicoli all went together. I thought it went well. Now I had met Spicoli once before already at another ball game. But this is the first time either of them mad kid too.

I thought it went really well. Veronica and I were if anything kind of subtle about the fact that we are “boyfriend – girlfriend“ we weren’t all lovey-dovey each other. I don’t know if we’ve even kissed in front of the boys. I’m sure that if kid 2 tried to put one-and -one-one together, he would figure it out. But I didn’t feel the need to announce our relationship status to him.

What’s more than that, Veronica and I don’t really even talk much about our relationship status with each other. I’ve mentioned on a couple previous post. I’ve tried to bring it up in while she wasn’t laughing at me per se, I think she was laughing as I was trying to fumble over words.

This one’s a little bit different for me. This is probably the most casual. I’ve been about a “relationship“ in my life. What’s more, this is probably the longest I’ve seen someone exclusively without any verbal commitment to each other. To be fair, I think this is something we are both doing in an understood manner. We’re not really talking about it, but I think we’re both trying to keep things kind of casual even though I think we both want things to be more exclusive and take this relationship quote to the next level“.

So maybe in a sense I’m not really avoiding anything with X2. There’s not really a whole lot to disclose to her; and again, it’s not as if I have to disclose anything to her. Having said all that, I think I’m at a point where I really need to be more honest with myself about my feelings toward Veronica.

My whole problem with “being more honest about our feelings“ is that’s the time when things get very serious, and things get intense. I’ve talked to her before about how I feel like we kind of bypassed the whole “honeymoon phase“. Weather that was by intention or not, for either of us, I’m not really sure.

But we went out last night after I saw Mother. Both Veronica and I have both been saying that the last few times we said goodbyes that’s it’s starting to get a little bit harder for both of us. I would be lying if I didn’t say that the idea of saying the L word to her hasn’t crossed my mind recently.

Maybe that’s the big secret right now. It’s not that I haven’t told X2 about us. Maybe what I’m doing is coming to terms with myself about my feeling toward Veronica.

I’ve probably got more saucy things I’m avoiding right now, but this is one that I’m willing to talk about at the moment.

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The article “Just between me, myself and I” first appeared in Rebuilding Rob.