Rebuilding Rob

Today’s the day. My 50th birthday. To be honest I’m giving this one a lot more introspection than I do most birthdays. I get it. 50 is one of those milestone birthdays. Not only am I getting older, but I am getting old.

One of my siblings is currently dealing with a cancer scare. After they went to their doctors appointment today, I met up with both my brother and my sister at a local bar. We had a couple of drinks. And then my brother and I were talking about the fact that pretty much every man in our family has died before turning 70. Both of our grandfather, one of our uncles and The Old Man all passed before 70. From the sounds of it, we’ve both resigned ourselves to the fact that we’re not gonna live another 20 years.

Between that, the cancer scare and the number of heart disease-related deaths that have occurred in both sides of my family, I’m feeling a little bit like my future is pretty well laid-out for me.

I’m sorry if this is sounding really morbid. But having the conversations that I did with my brother and sister yesterday, compounded by the fact that it was even my 50th birthday, and it just made me feel like the three of us are really old.

But here’s the good news: I’m taking better care of myself. I’ve been working out more regularly on the last month than I have in 10 years. I’m trying to make it. Or only a habit, but a part of my everyday lifestyle. I’m finally getting to a point where I can see a little more tone on my body which is only encouraging me to go more.

I was originally supposed to go out on a date with a woman tomorrow night, who I met on her dating apps. I will call her Dog Rescue, for the lack of a better alias. She wrote me about an hour ago and told me that she had to cancel, because she feels like going out with me was just like another thing on her to-do list. I tried to play it very cool and I said something on the lines of thanks for letting me know. Let’s not become strangers“. But truth be told, if I don’t talk to her again, I really wouldn’t feel very bad.

Again, I just feel like it doesn’t matter a whole lot right now in my life. I want a relationship, but I’m not going to despair if I’m not in one either. I think I’ve finally figured out that my happiness isn’t dependent on being in a relationship. As I mentioned esrlier, I’m taking batte care of myself. I’ve started looking at some different online universities, so that I can make a choice and apply for grad school. It’s just something I really want to get started before the end of the year. SEE: A blueprint for 2024.

Finally, I really want to do something about addressing my finances as well. I’m really thinking more and more about what, if anything, I would like to leave the boys. Right now, I would be happy just to not leave them any debt. Tying up some proverbial loose ends, in addition to getting my mater’s degree, will put me in a much better place, financially speaking.

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