Rebuilding Rob

To what degree to you care what other people think?

This is a loaded question. To make a long answer short: I care less than most people do, but I still care more than I like to admit.

The Insecurity Paradox

When I was younger—specifically junior high and the start of high school—other people’s opinions were my entire world. My self-esteem was non-existent, fueled by an insecurity so deep it almost felt like arrogance. I walked the halls staring at my feet, and if I heard whispering or laughter, I moved with the absolute certainty that I was the punchline. It’s a strange paradox; you have to have a massive ego to assume everyone around you is focused on you. It wasn’t paranoia that people were out to get me—it was the crushing fear that they were laughing at me.

I worried about the clothes, the hair, the speech, and the “popularity” of the friends I kept. I wanted to be liked.

The France Turning Point

A trip to France after my sophomore year changed everything. Seeing a culture that was more laid-back—less focused on the “bigger, better, faster, more” mentality of the U.S.—shifted my internal compass. I came back as a junior and realized I didn’t really give a shit what my peers thought of me anymore.

The Villain in Someone Else’s Story

That isn’t to say I didn’t still feel the sting of individual opinions. I remember “The Wrestler,” a kid who tripped me in the halls, causing me to drop my books and look the fool. Word got back to me that he did it because I “got along with too many people.” Even 35 years later, I remember that because it taught me a vital lesson: people will hate you for the most ridiculous reasons.

I’m taking this stroll down “amnesia lane” to remind myself that no matter what you do, you’re going to be the villain in someone’s story. We only control two things: how we treat others and how we react to them. Beyond that, people will cast whatever aspersions they see fit.

Stopping the Performance

I’ve carried this into my professional life. I don’t “kiss ass” with administration; that feels insincere. I’m simply the worker I am. In my romantic life, I’ve stopped trying to perform. I once spent way too much energy trying to impress a woman I met on a dating app—building her up in my head and trying to be someone I wasn’t. It didn’t work. We don’t talk. I finally unfollowed her.

The point is, I’m at a stage where I’m not doing myself any favors by pretending. Sure, I shower, comb my hair, and wear deodorant. First impressions matter, and I know how hard it is for someone to win me over after a bad one.

The Bottom Line

So, I circle back to the start: I don’t think I care as much about the opinions of others—or their general outlook on life—as the average person does. But if I’m honest, I still care more than I tend to realize. It’s a work in progress, but at least now, I’m doing the work.

Stick around...

If today’s talk about the “100% Policy” and stopping the performance hit home, you’ll want to check back at 10:00 AM. Episode 4 of Rebuilding Rob: The Podcast—”Bugs and Boundaries”—drops right here. We’re going deeper into the grit of setting healthy limits and choosing yourself.

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Today’s post is inspired by the WordPress Daily Prompt. While I’ve taken the topic in my own direction for the Road to 1,000 Days, you can find more responses to today’s prompt HERE.

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