Sleep, Anxiety, and the Art of the Shut-Down

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A dark, peaceful bedroom interior, highlighting the "sacred temple" sanctuary approach to better sleep.

What do you do to improve your sleep?

For years, I’ve joked that I like sleep; I’m just not very good at it. I’ve never been one to sleep in late, unless I’m sick or completely exhausted. I’ve documented my struggles on the blog frequently, including in “Nocturnal Contemplations“—I don’t call myself “The Sleepless Knight” for nothing.

I’m fairly certain my inability to sleep well has always been rooted in anxiety. As a kid, I hated going to bed—not the sleep part, but the act of trying to fall asleep. The lights going down, the house getting quiet; the simple act of closing my eyes made me nervous. It’s flared up a few times over the years, usually during periods of genuine depression or clinical anxiety.

I’ve reached a point where I’ve tried to embrace it. I’ve leaned into the “Sleepless Knight” moniker, accepting that it’s human nature to have nights where sleep just doesn’t come. Recently, I was surprised to learn that X1 and Kid 1 deal with the same thing—chronic insomnia seems to run in the family.

Today, my bedroom is my sanctuary, a sacred temple removed from the bullshit of the world, and even from the friction within my own house. I need that pitch-black room to find any peace. A few years back, I got a CPAP machine for sleep apnea, which was a total game-changer. – something I wrote about here in the aptly titled blog post “a game changer“ I feel weird falling asleep without it now.

When I’m disciplined, I follow the standard recommendations: TV off and phone down an hour before bed. I also love to read; the act relaxes me. It’s not unlike driving at high speeds: your eyes can only process information at a certain rate, and anything faster is tiring.

Then there’s the “brute force” strategy. On days where I’m struggling, I tell myself that if I just run myself into the ground, I’ll be too exhausted to think when I hit the pillow. To be honest, I’m not sure how productive that actually is. I often hit a point where I’m too tired to sleep, and I have to force myself to relax before I can actually drift off. It’s a psychological trade-off—a way to outrun the thoughts, even if the “kid hangover” is waiting for me the next morning.

P.S. Later this morning, I’m sharing a few thoughts on dating and relationships—specifically, the realization that I might know less than I think I do. It’s live now!


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3 responses to “Sleep, Anxiety, and the Art of the Shut-Down”

  1. justrojie Avatar

    during covid i had insomnia but mostly because i was on call for months and months and if i didn’t respond within an hour, they would furlough me. i tried magnesium, melatonin, and other OTCs as well and they worked initially but then either i’d build up a tolerance or it was no longer effective for me. i hope you get lots and lots more rest now with the cpap

    1. rebuilding rob Avatar

      I don’t think I’m exaggerating when I say that Covid it was traumatic for people in a lot of professional fields.

      I tried melatonin one time and it actually made me jittery. I’ve resolved I’ll never touch the stuff again. But my CPAP has been an absolute game changer for me.

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