As WordPress continues to recycle old prompts, I pulled another prompt from The Coffee Monsterz Co to respond to today
What is a difficult truth you had to accept?
Sometimes the most difficult truth to accept are the ones right in front of you. We see the sign, but we just don’t wanna read the proverbial writing on the wall.
For the past few days, I’ve been going back over old blog posts of mine; all the way back to when I began this Elon 13 years ago – as my marriage was ending. Mostly I’ve been doing it to add certain “Wordpress blocks” like the recent posts and related posts to my earlier entries and of course my logo that I paid for a few years back.
Revisiting the old posts has been a weird experience for me in some senses look back what I wrote about then and it seems kind of trivial. It almost feels like I’m re-reading journals I wrote in sixth grade. At the same time, I going through a divorce is a heavy time in any person’s life, so the sensations I was feeling I. The moments were genuine. In many respects, reading those early posts puts me right back into that head space of 2012, 2013 Rob.
I suppose this is my roundabout way of tying my recent activities into today’s entry. So to answer the question, a difficult truth I had to accept was when my marriage – and my LTR – were coming to an end.
Eminem “Till I Collapse”
This is your moment and every single minute you spend trying to hold onto it
Cause you may never get it again.
So while you’re in it try to get as much shit as you can
And when your run is over just admit when it’s at it’s end.
Sometimes the end of a relationship is like the sinking of the Titanic. Things may not even register for you at the beginning of the end. Sure, the Titanic probably realized that they hit the iceberg. But in the initial moment, it probably didn’t occur to them that the ship was going to sink. I think that’s just human nature. If it wasn’t we’d all be fortune tellers.
Looking back, I don’t know that I can point to one singular moment things were over between me and X1 or X2. I could tell when I knew it was over between us. Furthermore, I can’t speak for either of them and say when they emotionally checked out of the relationships.
There is a sense of denial, like The Grieving Process says I think sometimes we fight so hard to save something that we don’t realize it’s already gone. They say that in relationships one person checks out before the other. And once you realize there’s a problem, the other person has already emotionally detach themselves from the relationship 
But inevitably, we start piecing things together. One thing happens. Then another. And another still. The ship really isn’t indestructible. There aren’t enough life rafts. We’re in the middle of the ocean and too far out for anyone to save us. The problem with these moments of revelation is that once we have them, it’s far too late to salvage anything.
Thanks for stopping by Rebuilding Rob. Be sure to like, 👍 comment and subscribe to my blog below. It’s greatly appreciated! Also, feel free to follow me on social media as well! Check out my most recent posts as well as some earlier, related (and perhaps, not-so-related) posts:
- Teacher Armor and the Saturday Clearing
- The Extra Day: A Ten-Year Memory
- Of Training Wheels and Christmas Lights
- Charity Starts at Home (And I’m Back in My Childhood One)
- The Muscle of Empathy
The article “The Moment You Realize the Titanic is sinking” first appeared in Rebuilding Rob.
Designed with WordPress
Rebuilding Rob 
Leave a comment