Today is Mother’s Day, and the “kid hangover” has settled in with its usual weight. After dropping Kid 2 back at his mom’s, the sudden quiet of the house is a stark reminder of the “extra innings” I’m currently playing in this rebuilding process.
The McDonald’s Neutral Zone
On Friday, I witnessed a scene that felt like a glitch in the Matrix: a child moving between two cars in a McDonald’s parking lot. It was the “exchange”—a ritual so common it’s become a cultural cliché. It immediately made me think of the 1995 film Bye Bye Love, where McDonald’s was the central hub for divorced fathers navigating their weekends.
Seeing that “exchange” in person reminded me how brutal divorce remains for fathers. It’s a series of logistics handled in neutral zones, a reminder that we are often just cogs in a machine of shared, repetitive struggle.
The Breadwinner’s Mask
This morning, I read a post on Threads from a man who had lost a child. He noted that while everyone asked how his wife was doing, almost no one—aside from his closest inner circle—asked how he was doing.
It’s a perfect example of why I often feel like I have to wear “teacher armor” or a “game face”. There is an ingrained cultural expectation that fathers are just there to provide and be the breadwinners. People don’t think to ask how we feel because the mask is so convincing. We’ve reached a point where men are often starved for basic emotional intimacy—compliments, hugs, or just being seen—leading many to associate closeness only with sex. We are plugging along in a world that doesn’t often give a damn about our internal weather.
Option C and the 90-Minute Gap
I’ve spent the last six years trying to move past the anger I felt toward X1, striving for what I call “Option C”—choosing peace and self-respect over bitterness. I even offered to let her stay in my home this week while Kid 1 visited his girlfriend in Michigan. Years ago, I would’ve said I was more likely to land on the moon than make that offer.
But then the silence happened. I didn’t hear from them until I reached out this morning, only to find they were already in Michigan, just 90 minutes away. I bailed on helping with the move because I couldn’t risk my job, but being left out of the loop feels like I’m being “gypped”—not by the holiday, but by the lack of mutual respect. It makes me wonder if the anger I carried for so long was justified by this very tendency to be alienated from the loop.
The 100% Policy
This feeling of hitting a “ceiling” is everywhere lately, even with Veronica. It’s been far too long since we’ve actually seen each other, and I’m starting to feel that I’ve reached the limit of what that relationship can offer.
I’m leaning harder than ever into my “100% Policy”. I’m done accepting breadcrumbs of communication or effort. Whether it’s family logistics or personal relationships, I have to choose myself.
The Tigers play tonight, and I’ll go see my mother soon. But for now, I’m just sitting with the “mnemonic hum” of the house, processing the fact that being a father often means living in the colorful moments and the gray silences all at once.
Rebuilding a life takes grit, consistency, and a lot of ‘Option C’ thinking. Whether I’m closing in on 1,000 consecutive days of blogging or reflecting on the decade of work that brought me here, the mission remains the same: No glitz. Just the work. New to the blog? Start your journey here to see the blueprint and the ‘Tricorder’ perspective behind the rebuild.
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